I have been stuck at home for 4 years now sometimes with a car sometimes without….I have tried and tried to adjust…to get a routine going….I am use to working full time going to the gym..blah blah..married 17 years 2 grown kids & a teenager with health and mental problems….when I got sick at 40 it came on out of nowhere so fast and so hard….I was Deliorous…..I litterally lost my mind…4 years of different meds all with side effects…I am to the point now where I need something to do….I tried cleaning houses…super nasty! I am a licensed medical assistant by profession specialist in blood draw through arm or hand….can’t do that anymore because I shake really bad now…can’t be a waitress because my motor functions have been effected and I can’t multi task anymore….I came across posting on Craig’s list home health aid….lady can use the bathroom and shower herself…2 hours a day 5 days a week 10 minutes from my house….I can deal with 1 person cook and do laundry….here’s my problem the tags on my car expired May 6th…it will cost 400 for insurance and registration…..do I chance it? This job pays once a month almost 400….if I chance it for a month I could get my car taken care of…I can have an out of the prison I feel like I’ve been living in….I can have a routine something to focus on….I think all day long my brain only stops when I sleep and I need a pill for that…BUT if I get caught my car goes to impound and they could take me to jail….what are the odds? 50/50…is it worth it? Idk…..I think no don’t do it then I long to have a life…what do I do?

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